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This Is ME!!!!!!
February 2019
Looking back at my childhood I can now see I had some issues with food - I remember when walking to school, dreading it. I was picked on and didn’t have many friends but then I started to take out my chocolate and biscuits I managed to sneak out the house and as I ate these it made me feel better. Food was a major comfort - I always felt better, but then afterwards I felt guilty as I was desperate to be slim. I thought if I was slim I would be happy and popular. I tried to diet but I couldn’t stick to it - I felt like a failure...
If At First You Don't Succeed.......
March 2019
I didn't just wake up one day and decide not to eat.
It started with difficulties at work. I wasn't coping, was crippled with anxiety and living with depression.
There were warning signs that those around me noticed which I brushed aside.
It couldn't be happening again.
My Bulimia Story
May 2019
A comment here, a comment there. That’s how it starts. An innocent remark made to a vulnerable impressionable young mind can set off a catastrophic set of events, that can shape a person's life forever. At least, this is how it started for me.
Let's Stop The Stigma!!!
May 2019
After attending a 1920’s themed murder mystery event at the Swan in Wells, in aid of SWEDA I decided to learn more about the fantastic but relatively unheard of charity. A few months later I met with Laura Miller, Sam Best and Paula Blight, CEO about how I could help the charity.
In the meeting they presented lots of ideas and suggestions about how I could help, from Red Berry’s involvement with the charity, to me speaking at events.
How do I speak the Truth through my eating disorder and prescription substance abuse
January 2020
I speak my truth with coping strategies of an eating disorder and prescription drug addiction.
And what truth do I speak to the world with my behaviours?
I say “don't see me, I will hide in the shadows of shame”.
Because shame is safe where I remain small. And I say “please don't see me or hear me “. I also give another clear message that says “I'm in raging anger pain and grief, but I will take it inwards to let it burn my soul”. To create a cycle of never-ending torture upon myself to punish the part of me that believes I'm inherently bad.
Hunger Versus Fulfilment
January 2020
As the guarded Hunger is released,
Im held in a sacred embrace of desire to the endless whispers of sensuality,
Where shame no longer speaks its vitriolic acid name,
To transmute pain into soft lilting tones of a sapphic love,
To unburden the heart to bleed in truth, love and Power of Liberation.
