Funny how quick things change
A new day, a new start
But as I open my eyes, I see no light
I feel the warmth from those around me
I try and understand myself
what way should I go?
elasticated in my head, part pulling me to stay, part reaching to leave
I'll flee and go the way I "should"-I eat
Guilt, anger, shame, worthless, greed, worry and failure is now forever locked up in my head
I regret it, everytime so why do I bother?
Decide to stop , do what I "should do" - not eat
Stronger, succesful, happy, free, and lighter
What happens along the way I wonder
As a flash of lightning- powerful and fast, my mind is corrupted
I try and try to get better, but Ive realised its only for others, never myself
When I reach into my soul ,and see what it holds
I see what I want and Im ashamed in every which way
I will not say what I want, its wrong
But one thing I know I can say is that all Ive ever wanted is happiness
Happiness comes in so many forms
It comes in to soo many ways, so many..... shapes

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